Behind
I am behind in my Holidailies posts, which means I may drop below the dreaded line.
The bright sunny afternoons, the beach here, the mild temperatures and the laid back California folks are having a turkey effect on me, which is a good thing for me, not such a great thing for racking up blog posts. Perhaps I am comfortable here, perhaps it is my hosts (no doubt, they are AWESOME) and perhaps it is a turning point of some kind in my grief. I think all three, in fact. I want to leave behind all the charred rubble that drags me down and move forward without all the weight. Not that I will be skipping and singing tra la la, but knowing that the steps I take are not into a field of emotional landmines would be very nice.
While here, I haven’t been able to really ponder the big issues at all. So many good mind-blowing things are happening: new places, new roads to learn, relatively new landscape, long talks with a friend who bursts with funny, clever and awesome…. it’s like there is major construction going on below the surface, so in the meantime, enjoy the taste of the food, the feel of the sun and wind, the sight of surfers, avocado groves, vineyards and Busytown highways and byways.
I’m just soaking it all in, gathering spirit and tanking up for the coming months of output, work, creative projects and problem solving. Soon enough, I will leave the place behind… but not the thinking, feelings, observations and learning.