This Time, Last Year
Friday, December 7th, 2007On Dec. 7, 2006, I wrote:
Though I feel alone most of the time, it’s simply not true as there are people all around me all the time. And when pressed to rely on them, it is amazing to learn that they come through. I’ll be damned: people might just come through for you, if you allow them.
In response, I have to say that today I feel mostly alone, and I do not feel people around me. No one counts on me right now, and I count on no one.* Will people really come through for me if I allow them? This presumes that I’m somehow not allowing them… isolation is one of the byproducts of grief. I cared so much that now maybe I need a moratorium on caring. (more…)